[Headcanon - Soul Campaign]

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Because rp always results in some Making Stuff Up, here is my headcanon for Miranda in Soul Campaign!

• Before Miranda become an exorcist, she wasn't "useless" because she naturally sucked at everything. She was useless because her low self-esteem made her think that she could never succeed at anything before she even started, and because everyone around her was unfailingly critical of her. Miranda was a self-fulfilling prophecy: as long as everyone around her thought she was a failure, she would also think she was a failure, and thus would mentally set herself of for defeat.
  


• Miranda's village didn't just decide she was a failure on a whim. While she's not naturally useless, she is naturally clumsy, and so was a rather awkward child. In addition, her parents were the kind who were highly critical of her - they noted her negatives frequently, and her positives rarely. This resulted in her peers seeing her clumsiness and taking their cues from Miranda's parents, causing them to assume that she was "useless" and "unlucky".
  


• She has bucketloads of mothering instincts. That protective streak of hers just gets taken up to eleven when children and teenagers are involved. From her own universe, Allen gets quiet a bit of this mothering instinct (Lenalee too, but less so - Lenalee's more of a little sister to her), and in Death City, Ash has very much sparked her mothering instincts. Especially since she thinks he's 11 or 12.
  


• She does Ash's chores for him. She cleans his room, does the dishes, and does his laundry for him. Although she had to ask Ash how to operate the washing machine before she could actually do any washing for him. For Allen, Miranda attempts to do the same but quite often she ends up mentally scarred in the process by all the disturbing decorations he tends to keep. But she tries! (And in neither case does she do...well...a particularly good job of any of these chores.
  


• Miranda has never had any romantic relationships. In fact, before coming to Death City she had never even had anyone show the slightest interest in her. This isn't because she's not attractive: it's because her home village regarded her as strange and gloomy and definitely not marriage material.
  


• As a result, she thinks she is unworthy of romantic love, and other people's flirtations mostly go right over her head. But, when she does recognise flirtations or sexual remarks directed at her, she finds them both incredibly shocking and nerve-wracking - but also flattering. Fact is, unless she dislikes the man she'd probably accept anyone's proposal of a date, just because of the "someone is interested in her!" factor.
  


• Miranda's family were new money, and had a respectable fortune. They weren't excessively rich, but they had enough that they were able to give her a good education and she was able to use her inheritance to get by during those (many) times when she was unemployed.
  


• Her education is one of the few areas that Miranda did succeed in as a child. Her parents had her tutored in history, literature, music, and some languages (mainly English and Latin). She wasn't a genius or excessively-talented student, but she was reasonably bright. (Alas, none of these these were real-world skills that would help her get a job)
  


• Thanks to said education, she can play the cello reasonably well. (Although she doesn't think she plays it well at all)
  


• Miranda does not hate - she fears. But what Rhode did to her back in her home town brings her the closest she has ever been to hate. While Miranda doesn't mourn for her enemies, she isn't happy to see them hurt - except Rhode. Because there is a place deep inside her, that has a kind of dark satisfaction that now Rhode knows what pain is like when the Rhode gets hurt, like when Lavi attacked her and she lost her fingers.
  


• Miranda's faith in the Order is crumbling. The Order saved her from her life of uselessness: but their treatment of Allen after the events on the Arc birthed some unvoiced doubts in her mind. The Order was still her home and her shelter, but she was troubled to see her friend Allen treated with such suspicious. In Death City, Kanda's revelation that the Order experimented on him shook her faith in the Order to the core. Now, she fears that the Order was not the saviour she had hoped it was, and is deeply conflicted.
  


• Miranda is Christian, and religious. She's not extremely so, but she finds her faith a comfort. Her doubt in the Order has not shaken her belief in God - she believes that any horrible deeds done by the Order were not God's wish.